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Day 2

Finally a trip out of town with the people I need: My oldest friends. I need this. I need to be away. 

I know for a fact that this didn’t happen once. I should be happy about what’s happening. I asked for this. I saw this coming. I’ve been through this before so there shouldn’t be a single drop of tear. 

What I don’t get is this thing.. what’s happening is really getting on my nerves which is really weird. Or maybe because we’re in one room. Filled with people who witnessed how he got me on that one night under the stars. 

It sucks. Yeah. 

I write better when I’m broken

I become invincible with words. 

Be the type of person you want to meet?

Let’s list down what I am to me. 

I am selfish. I am self centered. I’m a fucking bitch. I have issues. I’m childish. I’m lazy. Irresponsible. 

No. I wouldn’t want to meet me. I wouldn’t even think of dating a version of me.

I need the opposite of me. Someone who would actually help me be a better person cause as much as I don’t want to admit it, I need help.

Day 1

I swallowed my pride and texted him bout how sorry I was and how it sucks that we’re fighting again. After a few minutes, he texted me back with a “Who’s This?”

I see the his process. He’ll get rid of me and after a few weeks, he’ll find a replacement. That’s how he got me. 

I tried talking to him but he ignored me. He ignores my friends too when they’d ask him what happened to us. 

I just hope there was a better closure. 

I hate the fact that there are people in this world who would tell you lies just to make you feel better.

I don’t see any goodness in it.

Since when did lying become okay? 

What i do to my friends is serve them the cold bitter truth about their silly partnerships with boys who take them for granted. 

I try so hard to not act like a psycho girlfriend.. to bottle up all the jealousy and doubts and lock it somewhere deep and dark. I try everything just to put trust in to this relationshit but how come he does the opposite?

Im don’t see a future in this anymore. 

Im better off single.